Unhappy.

Sonnet XVII.



Yen Ing Tawang Ono Lintang.

 

Yen ing tawang ono lintang, cah ayu,

Aku ngenteni tekamu,

Marang mega ing angkasa, nimas,

Ingsun tekok 'ke pawartamu.

 

(If there's stars in the sky, beautiful,

I'm waiting for you,

To the clouds in the sky, my dear,

I'm asking, 'how are you' )



Tobacco Kiosk.

 

Tobbaco Kiosk.

 

I am nothing

I shall always be nothing

I cannot wish to be anything

Aside from that, I have within me  all the dreams of the world.

 

Windows of my room

The room of one of the world's millions nobody knows about

(And if they knew about me, what would they know?)

Open onto the mystery of a street contiously crossed by people

To a street inaccessible to any thought

Real, impossibly real, certain, unknowingly certain,

With the mystery of things beneath the stones and beings

With death making the walls damp and men's hair white

With the destiny driving the wagon of everything down the road of nothing.

 

Today I'm defeated, as if I knew the truth

Today I'm clear minded, as if I'm going to die

And had no more kinship with things

Then goodbye, this building and this side of street becoming

A long row of train carriages, and whistle departing

From inside my head

And a jolt of my nerves and a creak of bones as we go.

 

Today I'm bewildered

As one who wondered, discovered, and forgot

Today I'm devided between the loyality I owe

To the outward reality of the tobacco kiosk at the other side of the street

And to the inward real feeling that everything is just but a dream

I have missed everything

And since I have no aims,

Maybe everything was indeed nothing.

 

What I was taught

I go down from the window from the back of the house

I went to the countryside with grand plans

But all I found in it was grass and trees

And where there were people, they were just like any other people

I step back from the window and sat in a chair.

What should I think about now?

 

(From; Tabacaria, by Fernando Pessoa, 1888-1935)

 

 

 

 



Evening.

 

Water's color at dusk still white

Sunsets glow in the dark gradually

Windy flowers shake like broken fan

Wave moon stirs like strings of jewels

Ducks sleeping not alone

Crickets chirping repeatedly one after another

 announcing night,

Returning steps still hesitate.

 

(Po Chu-i AD 835)



Temporary.

 

"Don't addicted to this being human,

This is only temporary."

 

(Robert Monroe 1915-1995)



Sonnet.

 

"And if the earthly no longer knows your name,

Whisper to the silent earth;

'I'm flowing',

To the flashing water say;

'I am'."

 

(Rainer Maria Rielke, from; Sonnets to Orpheus)



I'm smiling to myself today.

 

I am smiling to myself today,

There's no wish left in my heart,

Or perhaps there's no heart left,

Free from all desire,

I sit quietly like Earth,

My silent cry echoes like thunder,

Throughout the Universe,

I am not worried about it,

I know it will be heard by no one,

Except me.

 

(Rumi)

 



To let be.

 

 

"The truth is, you cannot try to let go,

trying, is the opposite of letting go,

to let go is to relinquish trying,

to let go is much more like

to let be."

 

(Adyashanti)



Seeds.

 

"Don't judge everyday by the harvest you reap,

but by the seeds that you plant."



Lesson in life.

 

A wise man sat in an audience and cracked a joke,

everybody laughed like crazy

after a moment he cracked the same joke again,

this time less people laughed

He cracked the same joke again and again,

when there's no laughter in the audience,

He smiled and said,

"you can't laugh at the same joke again and again,

but why do you kept crying over the same thing

over and over again?"



Wealth.

 

"The definition of wealth has changed.

Wealth now is having more money, wealth means

a car, big house, accounts in banks, etc,etc,

While  the real wealth is,

when you know, when to say,

this is enough.

in other words,

contentment."

 

(Dzongsar Jamyang Khyentse Rinpoche)



Namaste.

 

"Namaste,

I honor the place in you

in which the entire universe dwells,

I honor the place in you

which is of love, of truth, of light and peace,

When you are in that place in you,

And I am in that place in mine,

WE ARE ONE ."



Inner peace.

 

Signs and symptoms of inner peace.

 

*An increasing tendency to let things happen

rather than make them happen.

*An ability to enjoy each moment.

*A loss of interest in judging others.

*A loss of inerest in judging self.

*A loss interest of conflict.

*A loss ability to worry.

*Overwhelming episodes of appreciations.

*Connected with people and nature.

*Frequent attack of smiling.

 

(Saskia Davis)

 



Remembrance.

 

"And you wait, keep waiting for one thing,

which would infinitely enrich your life,

maybe rare, maybe mighty, maybe uplifting,

depth that would reveal you to yourself,

 

In the dusk you notice the piles of books that muse you,

with their volumes in gold and brown,

and you think of far lands you've travelled,

of pictures of shimmering inspiring women,

 

And it comes to you all of a sudden,

you arise, for you are aware

of years in your distant past,

with it's fears,

and events,

and maybe a little prayers."

 

(Rainer Maria Rilke, 1875-1926)



Refuge.

 

"To aquire the habit of reading,

is to construct for yourself

a refuge from

almost all the miseries of life."

 

(W Sommerset Maugham)





Never alone.

 

 

"If you make friends with yourself,

you will never be alone."

 

(Maxwell Maltz)



Accumulation.

 

(Toko tiga, old chinatown)

"Knowledge is accumulation,

Wisdom is letting go."

 

(Lao Tzu)





Seeking outwardly.

"The poorer we are inwardly,

the more we try to enrich ourselves outwardly."

(Jun Fan lee)



Sin.

"Perhaps, a sin that humbles you

is better than a good deed that

makes you arrogant."

(Sheikh Hamzah Yusuf)